Ma Life. . . The Aftermath. . .

I'M BACK!!!

2009-03-10T02:55:00.008+08:00

SORRY la ppl of d world fer d extremely late update!! Kwang3.... Been pretty much bz lately... Actually, not dat bz... Actually, both uh... Haiz... Ape yg ku mepek nie?? K BYE! Ehem! To be honest, dere were so much happenings while diz dusty comp been left untouched. Occassions, outings, etc. Hehz. I mean seriously! Realie had loads of fun. And i hv trouble deciding which ta share. Anyways, i'll be tokin bout WANDYA's 2ND ANNIversary. Woohoo!! Achievement or wat?

Actually, we both got tired of wishing wat peepz call, "MONTHsary".. WTH iz dat?!! Itz nt even in da dictionary!! Mwahahaha!!! We ain't bein action, but da way we see it as not bein optimistic. C'mon people!! Count da yrs, NOT da mth!!! Well, we admit derez no harm la.. Tak salah pe kalo nak feeling2. Asalkn korg bahgia disamping keluarga..

Without further celoteh, below are some pics fer u guys ta ponder. Feeling oh-so-tired ta even type da next word. Kwang3!

Ma first cable car ride. Da feeling? Only god knows.

Got her a "COMPLIMENTARY" Stitch at PS. Ouh YA! Boo claimed dat Stitch is me. Juz bcos dat creature has chest hair which i dun wanna explain any further.. Hehz...

And of course, ADIDAS PREDATOR soccer boots.

From SENTOSA "FIELD TRIP" ta Cable Car ride ta late night movie at PS. But none of those can get me feel enough of her. Im too attached ta her. It doesn't matter whether i hv a mountain of gold. Coz wat really matters da most iz HER, NADYA. Wat a day ta rmbr!

TLC

wawan

BLAST

2009-01-08T14:35:00.007+08:00

Had a realie great time juz two dayz b4 school reopens on monday. Spend oh-so-valuable time with ma dearest Nadya at Batam. Ok, i noe dat Qns have bn lingering in yer mind. Askin,"Why of all places, to batam?" Well, actually the main motif is to shop a lil bit here & dere with her cousin, dina, as our tour guide. But in d end, our actions contradict evritink we had in mind. Kwang3. We shopped till drop. From da tyme we arrived at 12pm till 11pm. 11hrs or wat?? hehz... Below are some shots we took.We both spend da nyte at dina's plc and went home da next morning. I realie hv ta say dat d entire tour in batam iz a BLAST!! D items r realie2 cheap. . Damn cheap! But in d end, nutink feels sweeter than having ma girl by ma side all along. Dat was our 1st tyme travellin as a couple. And of course, our first time travellin together la. Ok, i'm smilin to maself. . hehz. . .

So, juz less than 24 hrs to ma big 20!! Wonder who'll be wishin me 1st wen da clock strikes midnite... hmm... Have ta get prepared fer msg flood. lol. Till den...

Ma laz teen is endin soon

wawan

5 REASONS WHY

2008-12-29T02:09:00.004+08:00

Some peepz must be wonderin why da hell am i too attached to her. Here are the reasons why. The rest of it, hmmm... I cnt realie explain. You'll realise when yer in diz situation of mine. Letz c if u cn explain it ta me.

1. She's a part of me.

2. Da best part of ma life.

3. She's so fine- da way she talks, da way she moves her evri muscle, etc.

4. She isnt pretty but Beautiful.

5. God sends angel to bring us together. God iz Great!

Evriwhr i go & at evri tick of da clock, she's oweas up here in ma mind. And now, im missin her badly & cnt go ta slp. Juz take a closer look at da time i posted diz entry. 2 dayz in a row w/o mitin each otha and diz iz d aftermath. Hehz. Im so crazy in love. Realie2 hope ta getta mit her leta in da day. Damn! Im gonna hug her.

Juz laz words b4 i sign off: Love is the magician, the enchanter that changes worthless things to joy.

wawan

PICTURE DEPICTS A THOUSAND WORDS

2008-12-26T03:48:00.002+08:00

Not an issue. Juz a confession.

Picture iz sumtink dat one look upon, ponder & have lotsa comments. However, some people dun express their tots verbally but their facial expression tells it all. Diz iz due ta some reasons. Itz either dey feel like it OR dey are forced to do so.

In ma situation, im indirectly forced to do so. Juz bcoz of da comments dat i give, i receive threats. Woah!! Scared huh? Well, i got no 1 ta confess to, actuali. So here's d onli place i cn turn to, diz tyme round. Fellaz, a pic showin yer gal standin closely next ta a guy whom u dun realie noe frm which planet dey r frm,-I mentioned da word, "DEY", coz itz not 1, not 2 but several pics.-diz includes da recent agenda at ZoukOut, wat would y'all feel? Happy? Certainly not. Juz keep quiet? Hmm... A dumbass would do dat.

So, what happens when she threatens ya? Ok, fer dose who doesn't noe watta do, i got a suggestion-A man gotta do wat a man gotta do. See, whatever ladies can do, fellaz can do it too. Objection, anyone? I suggest dat one fine day, letz put our shades on & hit da dancefloor. Grab a chick, snapshots & upload dose shots on d internet. Den, sit back, relax & observe da respond. Lets c if dey cn keep themselves quiet. hmmm.... (I realie think diz idea isn't dat bad aft all. Mwahahaha!)

P/S: Da suggestion above isnt fer da faint-hearted. Yer discretion iz advised. Kwang3.

Aniwae, Happy 22nd mth fer da both of us(includin da 6 mths break-up). Had loads of fun spendin our time togetha at Vivo, Ben & Jerry's, Sentosa and Tampines. hah! Realie had a great time witcha with all da running at Pahlawan Beach, feastin & drinkin. Hehz. To all readers, Nadya iz da best thing dat has eva come into ma life. PERIOD!

Yer none otha then
Syazwan aka Wawan aka Wan aka Wak

K bye!

IS "CONFUSE" DA RYTE WORD? AND PLS STOP!!

2008-12-18T01:43:00.005+08:00

So things are beginning ta turn haywire a lil bit between me n her. Hmm.. What a start huh? So here it goes.

I say "NO!" while she says "YES!". And evritime i say "YES!" she'll prolly say "NO!". Okay, ta make it short, we oweas hv COUNTER-ARGUMENTS. I dunno why iz diz happening ta us but i got a feeling dat all those will soon end. Hopefully.

See, i've got absolute faith in diz r'ship and havin diz faith tingy makes me weak. And when i'm weak, ma mind starts ta go wild. Thinkin, "Where she go? Where she at? Dun tell me she isnt serious." But wait a minute, when someone has dat sorta tot, cn he/she have faith?? Okaaaayyyy... So confuse iz realie da ryte word ta explain ma situation. Why da hell iz diz happening ta me??!!

All these veri wild tots iz wat most people call paranoid. A jackass will call it hallucination. DAMN! I have ta stop b4 itz realie too late. I dun wanna end diz r'ship tragically again & again. Mayne, i love her. I realie do. She told me she's willing ta sacrifice otha fellaz and contacts fer me. And hvin diz situation dat im facing, it realie iz a bad way ta react ta dat.

Babe, im gonna repay ya fer all yer deeds ta da best of ma ability. Ya noe diz isnt da best i cn do. Gonna prove it ta ya by showin ya dat im fer real. Keep diz in mind, babe. Coz diz iz ma promiz to ya.

Nadya's

Wawan

FINE DEN

2008-12-06T04:58:00.003+08:00

I'm sorie. Shouldnt have tried making ya change.

Should accept ya fer da way ya are. Not ta make ya ta

somethin yer not. Even if it hurts so bad, i have ta endure.

Datz d onli way ta kip diz rship goin- which iz ta swallow everything

and hope things will turn out da way i want things ta be.

Juz one more thing. I wont eva gonna be da one givin up

diz rship even if im in da wrong. Coz i've oweas kip ta diz oath.

And running away from mistakes is juz gonna make things worse.

Perhaps, it isnt man enough. So each time when ya feel like givin up,

oweas remember dat im da guy who has sincerely been luvin ya from da start.

Ma apologies

Syazwan

DE-CORNROWS....

2008-12-06T02:26:00.002+08:00

Itchy, uneasy & stressy (Iz dere sucha word??)!! So i really gotta get 'em outta ma head!! Here's d aftermath....

Missin her badly. . Hope ta mit her tmr. . If she wants ta... Hmm...

wawan

A BOYFRIEND'S 10 WISHES

2008-12-05T01:43:00.005+08:00

How i wish:

1. She could love me as much as i love her.
2. She could miss me as much as i miss her.
3. She could contact no otha fellaz except me.
4. She could ferget all otha fellaz except me.
5. Each time she wants ta enjoy, she thinks bout me.
6. I could be the last one that she calls late at night.
7. I could be the first one that she dials when she opens her eyes.
8. She won't have ta hide & lie anything. Even if her intention iz ta make me happy.
9. She knows that rhip does not only consist of LOVE & TRUST. But SACRIFICE as well.
10. She could be mine forever.

I understand dat evri1 nids time ta change. Some may have counter-argument by sayin, "Loving someone is ta accept the way they are.. Not changing 'em ta da way ya want 'em ta be." But hey! Someone who trully loves ya & care fer ya would only want ya ta change fer da betta. Not change fer da worse! Who in the world would like ta c their loved ones flop? Hmm... B, ya want me ta trust ya. Well im tryin but it won't be possible if there's anotha lie and things datcha hide. We both have tasks ta do ta kip diz rship goin. So letz start now and make our dreams & desire come ta life.

Oweas here when ya need me
wawan

CORNROW! FINALLY!!

2008-12-02T11:35:00.012+08:00

STRESS SEH BAPAK!! COOL OR WAT??

AFTER 30 AGONISING MINUTES

MEET MA PERSONAL HAIRSTYLIST! KWANG3

...45MINS PASSED.....ARGH!!!

AN HOUR..... SATISFACTION

FUUYYYOOOO!!!

PHEEEWWWWIIIIITTT!!!

HMMMM....OK......

And in the end, im still missin her... So glad ta be back again.... Letz make it work babe!!!!

Im hers

wawan

IMMA RICH MAN

2008-11-29T01:35:00.002+08:00

Imma rich man,

they cut ma credit card account yesterday.

And I dun have da money ta pay.

She likes ta chill instead anyway. So we're OKAY.

Imma rich man

but i dun have a job currently. And datz juz fine fer her & me.

Coz we find another way ta keep busy. Ya'll know what i mean.

Imma rich man

but i dun have da car ta drive. And truthfully i dun really mind.

She walks around wit me all da time.

Imma rich man

say imma wealthiest man in da world.

But i got no money, no gold & no string of pearls.

I dun need nutink as long as i got ma girl. Coz she's ma world.

Imma rich man

coz she's ma diamond

Honestly,

Wawan ;D

EVERYONE'S MOVIN ON. . AND SO??

2008-11-21T04:03:00.003+08:00

Ok, here's anotha issue. . Some people dun realie think before they say. . .

Definition of MOVE ON WITH LIFE (in his/her case): To carry on with life.

Life is a process of becoming, a combination of states we have to go through. Different people have different experiences and missions in life. So, when YOU say, "everyone's movin on. it's time i should too", do YOU mean that YOU are not movin on?? Hahaha! YOU are juz makin a fool of yerself, arent YOU? Hey! WAKE UP CALL!! Everyone is movin on. Includin YOU & me. But wat YOU want in life dat matters.

Ok, now, lemme guess.... What YOU are tryna say iz YOU dun wanna get back ta da life YOU once had, ryte? Which oso refers ta da life YOU have eva had wit me. Hehz... Datz a realie sad thing ta noe... (But watever it iz, i dun care who YOU'll be with as long as he helps YOU in becomin a betta person. .) Hmm... Anyway, diz iz da kinda mistake dat peepz do. Which iz ta go through experiences and juz ferget bout it. Like some say, "Datz da past, ferget bout it." Honestly, dat sentence iz bull-shit! Should bear in mind dat 'past' iz da subject dat make YOU what YOU are, who YOU are & where YOU stand. Da past oso serves as a reminder of da mistakes dat YOU & I have made. Compromise is da way ta learn from mistakes, not leave. Leave=Running away from mistakes=Dun learn anything.

So when YOU leave, wat was da next thing on yer mind? "ENJOY la geng... Macam tak paham plak... Gua suah single beb.. Carik lelaki cute2 yok!" Haiyo!! Enjoy till when? Till yer 6ft under? Haiz... Life iz too short ta enjoy-sakan. We dun even have da time ta learn from all da mistakes we've made. Wat YOU want fer YOUR future depends on what YOU think of YOUR past. When YOU dun wanna tink bout da past which results ta not learning from it, it realie shows dat da past has taken da best of YOU. Ignorance isnt bliss. . It realie isnt. . .

Life is a game of choice.
I choose ta help YOU in a way or another.
Coz each time YOU leave & ignore me,
it only makes me stronger.

Stronger ta help ya
WaWaN

GIVE UP

2008-11-18T02:12:00.002+08:00

Does it worth givin up? Knowin datcha luv him/her & havin ta feel datcha cnt live yer life wit any otha person.

Me, d answer is definitely a NO-NO! Jyeah! As i've said in da past few entries, itz true dat God has set our future AND it depends on our own effort. I'm not realie a 'mommy's boy' but she oweas tell me, "if ya want sumtink & ya realie tink it cn secure yer future, go fer it." And she also told me dat not evritink dat we want would be granted. But no matter wat, effort counts. I totally agree wit her. Coz we wouldnt noe wat our future would b like unless we try. And im tryin babe, and hopin dat d outcome iz worth d effort. If i tink datcha juz anotha girl who's of no hope, i prolly won't be wastin ma time tryin & hopin dat soon u'll b mine. Tryna make ya realise dat im fer real and showin ya sumtin real before ya look up & i'll be... Sigh....

I juz dunno wat ta add but hope diz helps.. A group of peepz told me dat yer a playgirl and dat i should ferget boutcha. And diz was wat i answered.....

Dat playgirl is da one who changed ma life. So does it worth ta ferget?

24-7 till i give up
Mohamad Syazwan

RUNNING AWAY?

2008-11-16T01:49:00.005+08:00

Hey! She's running away!! Catch her! Catch her!! Mwahahaha!!!

Ok now look. She changed her link again. Woohoo!! Running away? Hmm... May i ask WHY? Ok i'd rather not ask. Juz remembered dat i cnt ask a single thing. Every little thing i ask iz like gettin on yer nerves. Hehz.. Can i make a confession here? Ooops! Dat was accidental. Aniway, blogging iz all bout freedom of speech so, umm.. Letz start off by sayin, "IT'S UNFAIR." Why? Coz, u oweas get watcha want but i dun. Changin yer link means, i cnt read yer entry. So letz make it even. I'll be makin a countdown of 3 dayz. As of NOW!!

3 dayz left!!

FUTURE IZ OURS??

2008-11-14T02:25:00.004+08:00

Future brings out the anxiety of every individual. . . Izit?? Hmm. . Again, letz discuss...

Have ya eva heard of this quote, "Our future lies within ourselves..."? Hehz. . Everyone of us are likely ta succeed. I mean, SERIOUSLY! But, if only there's effort bein put up. Duncha agree fellaz? Planning our future isn't dat hard but fulfillin what we want & what we need in da long run, it realie iz hard(depends on individual & circumstances. OF COURSE!). Sayin yer hungry but not consuming anitink, would dat make ya full? Ok, dat sounds damn short term but if ya cant fulfil short term goal, can ya even accomplish long term goal? LOL. I mean itz logic, mayne. . SPECIFICALLY!

"See future. See forever.." Someone optimistic would say dat. . Well, i've eva confessed dat ta someone whom i'm realie in love with. And lately, i got da same four words back at me. Damn, i'm thinkin, "i hope diz time, she's fer real.." She's lucky dat i'm not da type who iz once beaten, twice shy. Hey! I still stick ta ma words when i say, "I want us ta be togetha foreva." Coz i'm fer real. We could have worked it out if she dint decide ta back off. Seriously. People need time ta change. People need time ta understand each other's needs & wants. And diz time, i've made a promiz ta maself not ta be complacent. I admit dat i did some wrongs but we wont have a brighter future without several mistakes. Right babe?

If only i cud foresee me & her future bein togetha foreva, it would be da nicest thing eva. But too bad, success is a step away, a step is an effort away & an effort is a devotion away. So first, DEVOTION. Do YOU have?? Or do YOU not??

Each of us have ta work on and not juz hope fer da best
though itz true dat God has set our future.
Coz wat we work fer iz success
and wat we don't iz failure.

YOU are what i've oweas hoped for. PERIOD!
wawan la seh!

IGNORANCE IS BLISS???

2008-11-12T02:39:00.000+08:00

Ignorance is a complicated thing to undastand. The term which can be of harmless and harmful ta yerself and ta anotha party. So, izit true ignorance iz bliss?

Personally, i think itz true dat ignorance iz bliss but to a certain extend. Yes, it can prevent one from getting involved in a conflict and such. But, duncha eva think of wat d otha party feels when he talks and talks and talks and in d end, all he gets iz LaLa-ByE, silence, followed by a new topic bein brought forward. Fellaz, tell me, will a r’ship work dat way? Hmm... Certainly not huh? A r’ship won’t work without any thorough interaction between one anotha. Without this, can there be understanding? Without understanding, can there be trust? Without trust, can there be love? This iz what LOVE realie mean to ya? Diz i tell ya. When dat very thing happened to me, i did feel hurt. But i’m still cool. Juz following yer tempo, tailgating ya.

So now, positions have been switched. I’m not gonna explain much but i’m prepared fer anitink.

As fer jobs, still cnt find 1 xia people!! Burden juz keeps pullin ma shoulders down. I cnt withstand da pressure till i find a job. REALIE!! Mates have been real good in helpin me out findin a job. BUT TA NO AVAIL! Dad with permanent disability. Mom with low paid job. How can she possibly manage? I wonder. With all da bills and me & awie’s pocket money, it’s merely impossible ta manage. Well, i hv ta say dat GOD iz great. Most gracious. Most merciful. Hopefully i’ll find a job anytime soon & Insya’Allah, evritink will get back on track. Ignorance isn’t dat blissful after all. . .

May da force be with me
wawan

SHE COMES...IT LOOKS LIKE SHE'S GONNA...

2008-11-04T09:57:00.003+08:00

Confuse? Dunno which ta choose? Buck up girl! Yer confusion pressures me. Realie! Cnt u see? Yer con.....fused... Haha!

Ok, i believe that u've changed. . But by a fraction. . A round of applause to ya. A slight change doesnt mean there's no change. Right fellaz? But how long will this change last. . ? Hmm. . . I understand dat ya still wanna enjoy. . Hehz. Well, me either! Enjoy all ya want while ya can babe. Coz sooner er leta, the term "CLUB" will be sucha bored thing ta talk about. . Trust me, it realie iz. . Next....

TRUST. A realie big word huh? To me, UNDERSTANDING someone plays a big part in TRUSTING someone. There's no TRUST without UNDERSTAND. Tell me, can you trust yer religion without understanding the concept of yer own religion? Hmm. . . She wants me ta trust her but her actions make it hard fer me ta understand her. . Seein sum1 i dun like, and ta make matter worse, da guy whom she's meetin dislikes me too. . And yet, she wants herself & i ta settle down, see forever & see future. I cnt understand, realie.

Love cant go without trust
Trust cant go without understand
It's been quite some time i think about the term "TRUST"
Until now dat i discover dat derez no Love without Understand

Hence, da basic thing bout love iz ta understand each otha. I noe we'll be back again. We juz nid tyme. If ya realie think dat im dat somebody who can give ya more than ya can ask fer, den dun lose diz privilege coz i've oweas been waitin fer ya.

Oweas
mohamad syazwan

YOUR VERY OWN..DAMAI'S FAV BOY??

2008-10-31T00:50:00.008+08:00

Letz differentiate between what's right & what's wrong. Or rather "What? What seh?" Kwang3...

Don't realise & pretend not ta realise are two totally different things. Duncha think? Hey c'mon la! Evri1 noes it! So those who don't, muz be pretending. Get it? Goooood. Im not sayin dat im totally right & of course, neither do i say YOU are totally wrong. Yeah YOU. YOU noe who YOU are. Itz juz dat YOU dun realise evritink, that is, the things that is happening around YOU. Not even the things YOU have been doin. Things aren't one-sided. Everything changes coz YOU've changed. BIG-time!! YOU wanna noe what? Evri single 1 of US -ME, YOUR GFs ("BLOOD")- WE have 1 common intention. Which is to help YOU. Do YOU even know that?

R6.... Gilera.... Spark.... TZM.... RXZ.... WHO DA HELL CARES??? What matter is YOUR safety with those BIATCHES. Think YOU are smart enough to handle? Think again! I aint anyone's favourite. There's no favouritism. WE are here to help YOU realise. Juz that. I've been holdin on to these words and have been wishing not to let it out. But it seems like YOU don't get da picture. I'm seriously tired.... Weary.... Coz each time i think boutcha, i got out of ma comfort zone. Tell YOU what, if YOU really think that i stole YOUR "BLOOD" away, i'll stop meeting 'em nor contacting 'em. When that happens, try to witness even the slightest of change between YOU & 'em. Hope YOU are satisfied with that. I can't change someone who don't wanna be changed. Hmm.....

Why do i have ta know YOU?
Why do i have ta fall fer YOU??
Why do i have ta even care bout YOU???

The reason is simple... FATE.

Damai's fav boy??? nahhhh....
WaWaN

NO WORTH TRYIN

2008-10-25T04:27:00.002+08:00

She gets wat she wants. He doesnt get wat he wants. Watz yer say, peepz. . ? Justify. . .

Personally fer me, derez no harm attemptin bt itz not worth tryin. Watz dere fer him ta cater ta her needs wen dere isnt any vice versa kinda system? It isnt fair at all. So much so, he will b da one feelin all stressed up at d end of da day. She isnt some kinda fairytale fantasy. And he should noe dat. She comes & go whenever she wants & however she likes. . As a matter of fact, diz realie shows dat she onli wants ta play with his heart. I noe dat it feels good having someone of yer dreams ta call & mit up. Howeva, he should realise dat spiteful words only break one's feelings but silence break one's heart. And havin him in a situation whereby da girl come & go, juz imagine how badly his heart breaks. So does it worth da try. . ??

So diz guy whom im referrin ta iz of course, maself. . Who else?? Hehz. . Never ending huh? Juz some words ta everyone but b4 dat lemme take diz opportunity ta say dat i've realie given up. . Fer good. . Till den........

"dun make someone yer priority when yer onli their option. . ."

Better off alone
wawan

NEW FOOTWEAR

2008-10-22T16:18:00.003+08:00

Juz what i need....

Bought it at 89 bux. . . Can claim not??? Kwang3. . . Sigh..... Still jobless and im freakingly stressed out. . . Hopefully, i will get a job anytime soon. . I juz have ta keep lookin fer one. .

Today, our 20th-tak-jadi. . Hehz. . . Y am i still keep thinkin of her. . ?? Should have let it burn. . Realie. . . Am i contradicting ma laz remark??? DAMN!! Quit tokin. .

I'm OUT!!

HARI RAYA OUTING!!

2008-10-13T15:23:00.008+08:00

Not much of an outing but these are some of da pics i can share witcha guyz. . Enjoy.....

And at the end of da day, they are the one thing that matters... Sorie fer da tyme wen i totally forget bout these peepz.. Coz i noe dat eventually, me & dat stranger will b together... I noe diz sounds soooo wrong but diz gut feeling tells me so... Any objection???

Slamat Hari Raya; maaf zahir & batin

wawan

EVRITINK ER NUTINK

2008-10-03T09:19:00.002+08:00

LOST MA GURL

& NOW.....

LOST MA JOB

WHAT ELSE????

ANYONE????

wawan

WAT TYPE OF PERSON AM I???

2008-09-30T03:31:00.004+08:00

www.blogthings.com/areyouacontrolfreakquiz/

www.blogthings.com/whatkindofflirtareyouquiz/

JYEAH!!! Guess datz me. . . Lol or cry till dry; itz all up ta ya ayte. .

And da next thing im gonna do iz. . . . REFLECT those on maself. . . .

wawan

IF.......

2008-09-29T04:22:00.002+08:00

If love was a bird

Then we wouldn't have wings

If love was a sky

We'd be blue

If love was a choir

You and I could never sing

Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar

You and I could never win

Cause we can never act out our parts

If love is the Quran

Then we are lost in sin

Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way

And I'll go mine

Live your life, and I'll live mine

Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine

Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times. It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye. Girl you know I love you, I can't deny. I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I. I know it hurts so much but it's best for us. Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust. So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry. It's killing me so, why don't you go?

yours' truly,
wawan

1 DOWN!!

2008-09-25T19:38:00.002+08:00

Okay peepz! After a year of waitin, finally i attain wat it means ta be happy. . !! JYEAH!!! Would like ta announce dat I'VE PASSED MA CAR TP TEST!!! Diz oso means dat i can ady drive. . . hahah!! (dey c me rollin, dey hatin. . .) WOOHHOOOO!!! Hence, i would realie like ta take diz opportunity ta thank ma fwens, ma fams, strangers & evri1 who had given me all da support & gd luck wishes. . hehz. . Cnt wait ta drive diz hari raya. . Show off sikit la beb. . . kwang3. . Iz dere any1 out dere who wish ta loan their car ta me?? hmm. .

Now, im gonna focus on bike license. . Juz mayb i cn pass by end of diz year. . Hopefully. . So peepz, i nid yer help AGAIN!!! Can?? hehz. . . I paused at prac 3. . Resuming after few dayz of hari raya. . How i wish evritink will go smoothly. . hmm. .

TO BOB, happy 18th!!
TO MOM, can i buy a scrambler when i pass??
TO STRANGER, im sorie fer da nasty remarks & nice meetin ya. .

juz so ya noe,
diz iz ma life, d aftermath
wawan

OWEAS BE MA BABY. . .

2008-09-23T02:23:00.003+08:00

A-NOT-SO-HAPPY-BELATED-

UNHAPPENED-19TH, STRANGER

We were as one, babe

For a moment in time

And it seemed everlasting

That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free, yeah

So I'm letting you fly

'cause I know in my heart, babe

Our love will never die, no

You'll always be a part of me

I'm part of you indefinitely

Girl, don't you know you can't escape me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

And we'll linger on

Time can't erase a feeling this strong

No way, you're never gonna shake me

Ooh darling, 'cause you'll always be my baby

ma life, the aftermath

wawan

FLYIN SOLO

2008-09-20T05:09:00.002+08:00

I'm movin on. . Slowly but surely. . . Evritink has ta be done one step at a tyme. . Ryte mates? Fellas & Ladies, im forgettin evritink bout da past coz now's da present & tmr's da future. . Dun bother bout wat had ady happened. . Now im single (again). . . Lookin forward fer a smooooove journey ahead. . Jyeah!!!!! Currently, im not quite into findin sum1 new. . Juz flingin (ya noe wat im sayin? hehe. . .) Wanna focus on ma unfinished businesses. . STUDY, SERVE MA NS(study at da same tyme) & FIND A BLOODY GOOD CAREER. . Datz wat im gonna do. . Ok, datz ma long term goal. . As fer now, which i realie mean NOW, gonna get ma license pretty soon. Both drivin & ridin. Da more da merrier duncha tink?? Kwang3. . Also, im gonna enjoy maself (with limits!!! i guess). . .

Honestly speakin, i hate bein single. . It makes me feel kinda lonely & demoralize at times. . Wat im tryin ta convey here iz. . . Behind evri successful man, derez a woman. . Hopefully, derez sum1 out dere ta help me wit diz. . And i realie mean someONE. . Fer now, i feel like im flyin solo. . On a journey alone without anyONE ta rest ma head on. . Im not findin one but i hope ta hv one. . Get wat i mean???

4 more dayz ta car TP test
3 more dayz ta Buka with da fellaz
2 more dayz ta. . . . . (i wish i can rmbr)

ma life, the aftermath. . . JYEAH!!!!
syazwan a.k.a. wawan a.k.a. wak a.k.a. wanda stello

ALL SAID & DONE

2008-09-19T01:52:00.006+08:00

Finally, evritink iz all said & done. . Thanked her fer she once had been one of da most important person in ma life. . Ma part went on by addin dat itz tyme ta realie ferget bout each otha & all da tymez dat we shared . Now, we're realie nutink. . Nutink at all. . If we eva c each otha in da streetz, sorie babe, i cnt remember maself knowin u!! We aint fwens! We aint mates! We aint anitink! And i have ma own reasons why i told sum1 else ta pass da msg ta her. . But hey! I did text moments leta. . !

To nadya:
If ya rmbr, diz was wat i tolcha,"itz either we're lovers er strangers. . you choose." So, itz yer choice. And u've made diz choice. Im juz doin ma job gurl; ta follow yer tempo. . U once claimed dat ya live yer life wit NO regrets. I hope u still kip yer words. Coz ya ady broke alot of yer promises. . U noe wat? i tink im gonna give ya another around of applause fer bein sucha sweet talker & a good actress. . hehz. . Should join MEDIACORP sumday. .

Im sorie i give up. . Im sorie i cnt wait fer ya. . Im sorie i cnt be da guy of yer dreams. . Im sorie ta trouble ya since 220207. . Im sorie ta c our blog & fwenster acct deleted. . Im sorie i holcha. . Im sorie i kissed ya. . Im sorie i was in luv witcha. . Im sorie i slept witcha. . AND Im sorie datcha felt sorie fer me fer not trustin ya. . Hopefully, u find da guy who mit yer criteria. .

AND NOW!! I NEED DA BOTH OF US TA FERGET EVRITINK BOUT EACH OTHA! NOW!!! AFTER DA COUNT OF 1.......2..............&.....................3

Yer coooool stranger
.....
I tink i forgot ma name too. . . argh!!!

MA FAMOUS LAZ WORDS

2008-09-18T05:04:00.008+08:00

How bout a round of applause.... Standin ovation.... hehz. . Muz most things be kept a secret? Well, i guess a pain in d asshole would do dat. . Damn! I mean, I just keep thinking about diz bitch. . I mean I wanna move on but I cant move on. Itz like diz bitch got some kinda hold on me Mayne! Ku stress!! But im gonna go ahead & talk about it. . Here it goes. . . . . .

I'm too attached! Ma heart wont lemme fall back! I got it bad datz wat you guyz can call dat. . . And wen I see diz bitch in da streets, datz da worst fer me. . Used to love the little things diz bitch did & datz wat works fer me. Ma fellas told me, "Juz let her go, WAK!" Believe me im tryin mayne but I juz dunno how!!

So, bitch. . . I noe ya have sumtin ta say ta me. . Sumtin which i ady expected ya ta say. . Since da day ya FREAKINGLY LEFT ME cold & hard!! I dun wanna be laz ta noe again & again & again. . . Coz da way i cya ryte now has become opaque. . BADLY i muz say. . Hence, before u even say a word ta me, letz juz say dat i'll wait fer ya NO MORE. . Itz no use. . Seriously. . . Im right here staring at these walls, tinkin "who she wit", "whr she at", and "iz she club hopping?" Not worth it. . Im so blinded by diz love. . And surely it isnt good at all. .

Now, like i oweas end a conversation; one of ma famous laz words. "All dat i want ya ta do iz ta sit back, relax & reminisce sum tyme. . Coz da grass isnt oweas greener on d otha side. . ."

Ma Life. . . The Aftermath. . .

wawan

MA DAMN PACKED SCHEDULE!! ARGGGHH!!!

2008-09-17T04:36:00.003+08:00

Diz month iz ma most packed-scheduled-month ever througout 2008. . sigh. . . Juz put yerself in ma shoe & tell me how it feels like wen ya study in da wkdayz, work 3 wkdayz & both wkends throughout da week (catch a 2 second breath) AND undergoin both driving & riding lessons in between all dose. . phheeeewwww!! Gaspin fer air huh? Stress, bapak. . . Now, im still wonderin & ponderin how da hell did i manage all dose. And da best part iz, i manage ta go out wit ma ex-secondary skoolmatez, Mazlan, Rafta, a stranger(younoewhoyouare) & many more with lotsa schedule around me. . . Weird? Surely iz. . hehz. . .

So, yesterday dint attend skool and an unexpected thing happened. . Mamat was admitted bcoz of skin infection. First look; JIJIK XIA!!! But, kesian. . . He had ta go fer operation on da same day & it was a successful one. . Alhamdulillah. . . . Will be discharged leta today with plaster on his face. Evritink's fine huh bro? You'll be good soon so no worries, yeah. . Today, not goin ta skool again & again since Monday. I still cnt carry maself through da days smoothly, mayne!!! And itz all bcoz of YOU!! YOU noe who YOU are!!! Riding theory class diz evening till 10pm iz so killin me. Prolly i find maself droolin on da table at d end of da lesson. Kwang3. . . Next Wed iz da moment ive been waitin fer. CAR TP LA SEH!!! Hopefully i pass da test & end diz license-drought-misery. . Doakan semoga aku pass la ye. . hehe!

To YOU stranger! You can have WHOEVA ya want, WHATEVA ya want & WHICHEVA ya want. . But derez sumtin ya shld noe. . . The grass isnt oweas greener on d otha side. You claimed ta have ridiculous er natural feelin on sum1 and dat he left ya hanging. You oweas leave me hanging, even now. . So ma latest trivia iz, how does it feel like havin yerself been left hanging on someone else's??? Text me, cal me, tagged me, e-mail me, meet me er msn me if ya have d ans ta dat. .

Ok peepz, look at da time i publish diz entry. . Early huh? And i hvnt even slept!!!!! Argggghhhh!!!

Logging off
syazwan aka wawan aka wak aka wanda stello
ROFLMAO!!

TANX LA GERL!! AND NOW IM TIRED!! ARRGH!!!

2008-09-15T04:00:00.007+08:00

THANK YOU RAFTA FER DA HELP!!! DIZ BLOG WONT BE PUBLISHED W/O U LA FWEN!!! LOL.

HAIZ. . . Sahor la seh. . . Den i have ta prepare maself ta skool. . Will be a long2 day & i hvnt even slept!! Thinkin of N****H. . . Why do i keep thinkin of her??!!! I'm goin nutz la people of da world. . I nid a psychologist ryte away!!! haiz. . More updates comin up:
-Shisha-ing outing
-Wat else??? hmm. . Skool & Werk? Same old thing
Well, watever it iz, do visit diz blog & dun ferget ta tag ayte!!! I'll link ya ryte away! GTG. Food's callin!!!

Test Drive!! sorie!!!

2008-09-14T04:29:00.001+08:00

test 1 2 1 2!!!! mic check oi!!!! hmm...... will publish new post soon. . . in da meanwhile, enjoy da video in da video section!!! PEACE